How foolish of me. So what I became rustic. Even if the ability to make is rusting or/and etc... . Just create for fun.

Sure, I'd like to be hidden. Tho should credit stuff in a way that's not too much (info dumping, heavy advertising, etc...) . Although crediting certain things will be viewed more likely, there will always be a chance of gaining an audience that shouldn't be here. And crediting can be complex... like people changing names, the ones that's lost in time, etc..

I'm used to things not going my way, and it's normal. Lost notebook of drawings. So if I go poof that's unfortunate.

Insanity. Man, people are so creative ( it doesn't matter if it looks generic. I still see it becoming many things and envy you one way or another). My stuff is just so generic (someone had the same idea even if it's unknown, lost, not been seen, past, present, future, etc...).

Many thoughts... It feels like repetition in a way yet different.

Welp, things happen. And enjoy... just don't distract or push away yourself, which is myself. Progress takes many forms, which one it'll be and become.

Confuse yet so clear. Let's see where it'll go. Could've talked to myself in my mind, but this time, I felt like posting it. like a small stool. Life is many. There are similarities and differences. Yes, I'm just insane just repeating somethings people already know or too busy focusing on their own important thoughts/stuff.

It's very odd that the game I like I mostly play a few, then return playing for a bit inevitable be gone. Games like:

Techno Strike

Pokemon Duel

Dawn of Steel

Battle Bears

[Forgotten Puzzle Game about Space and Robots]

Robokill

[Weird shadow cat game where rotating will change gravity in a maze like puzzle]

Asphalt 6

[Mario, but it's robot themed]

Call of Mini infinity

Evil Factory

Spy mouse

[Very old game that was like monster legends first experience with that type of genre]

[A weird tower defense game about robotic monsters?]

Ect...

There are some difficult to obtain or inactive. I oddly know them with experience, but the names just blank... bad at remembering name, I guess it got taken over by remembering ideas/concepts of things. Random ramblings of mines. Yeah, most are mobile games few are console games that wasn't named here.

Basically, I may post stuff in blogs that could be a stretch but unsure, so I might as well see. I'm mostly trying out stuff.

Made a Pokemon Duel board in Minecraft

-Credits-

Concept:

Pokemon Duel - Board [A Shutdown Game]

Engine/Application:

Minecraft [Game]

Just testing out stuff

I'm an Insane dumbass, doing fine in this forsaken realm. Gonna be thinking about Deserts & Eagles. Will I draw a Desert Eagle. Will the Eagle draw a Deagle and shoot me while we're in the Desert. Will this scuffed drawing do anything? Who know.

I've used to draw for fun. I just enjoyed creating random stuff. Sooner, I've been filled with negativity & became afraid & unmotivated.

I used to not care about someone having the same idea because to me, if that happened, it would be so cool. Now I just fear because whatever I think of stuff I just feel demotivated like someone or something already thought of that past, present, future, thoese that had it but never seen by anyone, ect...

Sometimes, I create stuff out of thin air. I'm aware you already know that ideas can be made by anything, the textures of anything, the particles, the grassy field & extra more with the wind blowing on the grass, the clouds, anything really even the same spot can have many stuff to create.

Examples:

You already got an idea that these few aren't like the whole span of the many possible ideas.

Even when I'm filled with negativity, there is something that always holds me by a thread... the one that likes creating stuff for fun, acceptance, and comfort... a part of me that I feel like it's wasted on me & should've chosen someone else than me... yet still hold on to me...

I distracted myself to avoid the negativity... soon, I avoid social media because it is getting worse, & mostly subject myself to certain things that aren't giving off negative vibes then... the mind... looking back, my was was mature... well, not me. I fell back when I pushed back myself.

I've let myself be consumed by fear & etc...

This was an unorganized mess. And this is nothing. So, no worries. I'm just expressing myself... can be a nightmare to deal with, hence why it's a hazardous place. I overthink many things... hopefully, the title isn't... nah, you know curiosity made the cat go into a deep slumber... but by now, you've already gotten curious... man, why did you put the cat to sleep. Honestly, I'm unsure this is dark. However, I like to make it positive, just I feel it's needed & also not to make people worried about me. That's life. The amalgamation of many things. I know nothing, that's pretty much, is it.

Enjoy your life however you can. You didn't need to waste your time here. But it's rude of me to try to invalidate your empathy towards me. So thanks for reading. And treat yourself like a caring friend when things get rough to handle.